Mood: Persuing 'My Quest in Life'~as Nori might say
Song of Choice:"My December" by Linkin Park
Topic: Deep as Oceans, Hidden Like a Violet Near Moss

Happy Halloween you guys! Sorry no cool things here I'm not exactly on top of where to get anime pictures with a Halloween motif. Anywho I got an e-mail from another male that participates in my life very activily and it was in reference to a conversation we had. I was talking to him about my last entry and he said the English lanuage had the most words but they fail to capture the feeling. Then I responded by saying that perhaps some words were used to often. I told him saying I love you seems somewhat empty now a days you hear it so often I mean compared to(the following is a Witchblade refernce) when Ian offers his wrists to Sara and says "I'm yours." Well in any case these are his thoughts.


status: thinking
song: "wait and bleed"(slipknot)/"levels"(non-point)

okay i was thinking more on matter of why some people just don't get it(love). while i do agree some simply don't know what it is truly is, others do get it to a degree, but don't say anything because it sounds so inherently obvious if not to others then in thier own minds. its like of course they look for someone to hold them and tell them everything is gonna be okay who wouldn't. the answer for this is simply right there all you really have to do is stop and think for a sec but most don't because the answer sounds so obvious and when you look for the answer its seems kinda stupid when everyone else seems to get it. and who wants to be the one who simply didn't get it of course i doubt this to be the case the person next to you is probably just as lost in the whole matter as you are. and when you do actually decide to part from the sheep herd heading to the slaughter house you are scolded by the rest. They become the outcast the anti-socilites and the rejects. Some perfer this then be a sheep. Others at first are reluctent but come to terms and find themselves at peace with the fact they are truly seeing things. as the are while others regret leaveing a psychological place were everything was certain and you don't have to question, just listen to the guy and the tv and he'll set it staright right? in my case i say i can't accept me, screw you or if your in church and don't want to offend god "PEACE OFF" (side train of thought: start your day the holy way with the Chirst Checks, its a miracle in a bowl, back to main train fo thought)...woa i really need to stop giving my splinter personalities commerical air time seriously. okay at this point you may think i have lost it, well i think i agree with you. well thats all for it now i'll talk to you later.

games

Now I think that was well stated...I have to agree with most of it--I say most becuase the e-mail had more and it was basically rambelings so yeah...I don't know I found it interesting I also thinkg of SR-71's "Politically Correct" IT's all about conformity isn't it?
I don't know I just find the search interesting is all... who knows maybe we're all wrong maybe we're so on target it's nuts. Then again like Josh said, "So easy it's complicated." You know? All these boys...deep as oceans but like a violet near moss no one will stop to find that out...

Mood: Okay
Song of Choice:"Letters to God" by BoxCar Racer
Topic: What is love?

What is love? It’s a thought I have been wondering about most of the day. I mean some people think it’s an emotional adaptation to a physical need or desire. But really is that what the deal is. Perhaps according to another source it is simply a chemical reaction in your brain. You know what I think it is though…I think it’s something really different. I asked a friend of mine what he wanted in a girlfriend and his response is something I really didn’t expect from him. He said that all he really wanted was someone to hold him when he was sad, to understand him, to tell him everything was okay. To just not be alone anymore…When he told me that I started to cry because he’d just voiced something I’d never known how to. I think that’s what love is. I think love is this thing we are all looking for but don’t exactly know what it is.

It’s an end to…to loneliness…the death of solidarity…someone to share in your fight. I think from the day we are born we are alone…in some fashion or another. When our parents make us angry, when nothing goes our way, when your so full of pain, doubt, and you just don’t know who you are…I think that’s when we feel most alone. And I think that’s when we need love…someone to hold us and tell us it’ll get better…and to just be there and share in the hurt.

I reflected on my friends words for a long while. I mean I sincerely expected him to say that all he wanted was some girl to be his love slave but he genuinely didn’t want that. When I told him what I expected from him he responded that I had to keep in mind that he was a loner by nature and that he didn’t open up to anyone. He said I only saw what he wanted me to see only an illusion of who he was.

I thought about that too…I also thought about another boy I spoke with today. Or more accurately a conversation with the porno King.We were walking in the hallway and I told him my classes and he said Computers are the Devil. And we laughed a bit but then he got quiet and said he didn’t believe in God or the Devil. I looked at him and saw that he meant what he said…I didn’t ask him why…but I did ask him if he believed in Fate, Destiny, Preordained Future anything like that. And he said he didn’t. Then I asked him what he did believe in. He said he believed in himself…that he believed in the here, the now, and the then. Then he continued by saying that Yesterday never happened, Today is only a dream, and Tomorrow (I can’t remember but I’m going to ask him.

Then I said if only it were that simple. He answered it is. It’s so simple it’s complicated, so easy it’s hard—So beautiful it’s ugly I interrupted him. He looked at me and nodded then said exactly. With that we parted ways. Anyway it was an interesting day…

Mood: ...Eh
Song of Choice:"Catlike Thief" by BoxCar Racer
Topic: The Blushing Maiden and the Porno King continued

Well…yeah I guess you are all very curious how the whole situation went down…and I’d love to tell you everything is fine…but well….hehe from bad to worse you know?

Um let’s see where to begin…well we were outside not just me and him I mean like Joni and Tiff and all these other people just talking and eating and stuff. And he all or a sudden sits down and I do something that Josh McCoy knows all about I go and kick at the face but I don’t actually make contact because that’s not my intention. Well poor boy had no idea what I was doing so he threw himself backwards hitting his head on the concrete.

I laughed and aoplogized and he freaked out and was like what were you going to do? I explained I was just foolin around and so I leaned over him and offered hem both my hands to get up you know? Well since I walked in a weird angle or he got up in a weird angle I fell backwards and he caught me. It was one of those odd moments in life… he laughed at how clumsy I was. Then he started being a jerk to some people and I kicked him in the shins. Well he made the action that he was going to back hand me ( not in the face like on the bum) and I looked at him and said if he did it I’d beat the crap outta him. So he tried and I blocked him and out knuckles hit mega hard. Mine turned bright red and he was sorry and he kissed my hand and I went into the typical mega blush mode.

After that we fiddeled everyone did their own thing and what not but it was after class when things got messed up. We were going back to class and I was walking up front and he runs up behind me and smacks my bottom. Now people you know how I feel about my Jlo ass. So I snapped my cap and hauled off and punched him he got lucky because he moved just before I hit his cheek so it hit his ear.

I swear I have never seen a more shocked face. I was so mad I was like you’re so lucky we are at school if we weren’t I would finish beating you. Well with that I kinda just left him on the ground their and went to class. But after a good two hours of relflection I felt guilty and I was going to apologize for just going postal. But after school I couldn’t find him so now I get to spend the next 24 hours living in this very small but exsisting form of guilt.

Man I swear so so wrong. Oh well other than that today was okay…I guess I have homework and I have to pick a research paper topic….damn…I hate school so much…grr…

Mood: Confused
Song of Choice:"If I am" by Nine Days
Topic: The Blushing Maiden and the Porno King

Okay guys time for a change of pace no dreams lets try reality for one entry.

Okay I wear this rainbow dog leash thing aroung my waist that hangs down past my knee right okay I do it just to have some colors and a small reminder of Peter because I know he thinks about me just as much as i do him, Well for some reason guys like to grab it and try to lead me around which doesn't work and usually gets them a swift beating as expected.

Some guys I let play with it the leash like Dan, my geek friend, and Josh, the Porno King--mind you I never really put thought to it but I just let them.

Well today Josh grabbed the leash Mr I wanna be sneaky like I wouldn't notice. So I turned around and was walking backwards and he was talking to one of his friends and then he notices that I'm lookin at him. so I pull my leashto get it away from him and he pulls it harder and well walking backwards it threw me into him.

Then it was this surreal moment where he kinda just held me there and then he moved his face foreward and I know I must have had that stupid shocked blushing innocent girl what are you going to do (like Momiji and Kusenagi) look on my face because he let me go all of a sudden.

I realy had no clue what to do and I guess neither did he..so we kinda kept walkin and started talking about something else and acted like nothing happened.

The thing is I don't know how to interpret it. I mean for the love of GOD this guy IS the Porn King and he's notorious for making out with girls and what have you. AND he's a druggie and whatever and all this other stuff. Besides what if was only a second thing and my mind only made it seem like a while?

I don't know what to do I think my game plan will be to act like nothing happened...I mean yeah that's the best thing to do right? I need affirmation guys!! Help me out!

Mood: Status Unknown
Song of Choice:"I feel so" by Boxcar Racer
Topic: Stubleing and Perfect Men

Have you ever run a search and got mostly blogs? Well it happens to me a lot and I found this intersting one and you oughta take a glance here to see.

Now on the Perfect Guy thing here's what the flaw is...as quoted from my enlish text book

"An Irresisable Bad Boy: The Byronic Her"
'Mad, Badm and Dangerous to know'---Lady Caroline Lamb, speakin of Gerge Gordon, Lord Byron

'A man proud, moody, cynical, with defiance on his brow, and misery in his hear, a scorener, of his kind, impalacable in revenge, yet cabale of deep and strong affection'
This model of reckless, wounded, manhood described by Thomas Babington Macauulay (1800-1859) became known as teh Byronic Hero. Both in life and in his poetry, George Gordon, Lord Byron (1788-1824) gave his name to a type of hero who was devestatingly attractive yet fatally flawed.

Byron's personal charms and poetic talents offset a physical disablitly (a clubfoot) which embarassed him terribly and the complicated romantic entanglements that made him a social outcast. His heros, whom he often invited his reader to identify with himself, were also passionate yet flawed individualists: intellectually searching, incapable of compromise, forever broading over some mysterious past sin, painfully yet defiantly alone.

Heros for an unheroic age
The immesne popularity of the Byronic hero and the Romanticage celebration of his prototypes- Cain, Faust, Prometheus, and Napolean--wan't hard to understand. these were rash rebel, hailed or ressuredted in reaction to a neoclassical world in which order and restraint ruled the day. Most of these daring figures, whose ambitions were dommed from the start, also embodied the deep pessimism of early nineteenth century life. The failure of the French revolution had dampened idealism throughout Europe. And the labyrinthine restriction of state, church, and society allowed no suitable outlet for the outsized energy of creative young men like Byron and his fictional heros.

The American Heirs
The model of a sensitive rebel continues to be an engaging one for popular herod of the recent time: In post World War II America for example, as society had settled into a bland conformity, severla searching sensitive malcontents arrested the attention of movie goers everywhere.

One version of the Byronic Bad Boy was played by Marlon Brando, who popularized motocycles, leather jackets, and a sullen demeanor in his 1954 film The Wild One The leader of a motorcyle gang, Brando is asked. "What are you rebellin against?" hjis response, "What have you got?" The Actor JAmes Dean personified youthful rebellion in both his breif film carrer and his tragically shor life. In Rebel Without a Cause (1955), Dean's portrayl of Jim Stark,an alienated character searching for the meaning of manhood, made him a cult hero.

Like all Byronic heros, these moder, characters beckon us to explore personal freedoms and to reject confing conventions. Because thie freedom is achieved only by questionisn socal behavios, these heros are invariably lonely and misunderstood and because this freedom oftn compelst hem to perform dangerious acts, the lives of these heros can be much too short. Lord Byron dued of a fever at age 36 while fighting for Greek independence. James Dean died in an automobile accident at 24."

So there you have it...this is in many ways what I like in a man but you see the problem...then again I think in many ways I am like the female version off all that but oh well you know? Lol the "perfect guy" the one that self distructs....perhaps that's why I love Heero Yuy so much...Japanese equivelent you know....

For those of you wondering, I had another bad dream but you know what...fuck it! I am tired of this! This thing comes from my mom's side of the family but it usually only falls on the extremely religious ones--I AM NOT RELIGIOUS. I am such a freakin slacker I know next to nothing about my religion so why do I have it? I don't understand why I see death and destruction when I sleep. I don't know who sends these visions or why I don't get it! I just want to be left alone! I never claimed to be some damn 'prophet' or some Messiah! Why me? What am I suppose to do? I mean what can I do? I live in paranoia and what more? What actions can I take? Damn I don't understand....

but I am fine I accept my "gift" and will deal with it in some fashion or another...but I've gone on long enough

Mood: Sick
Song of Choice:Track 8 TRUST COMPANY
Topic: Dreams

I had another bad dream...but what bothers me is that it didn't involve me at all really.

I dreampt I was in a shed and when I looked to my side their was this lil blonde boy with glasses and he was covered in blood...he was dead. I pulled away and fell out the shed. Then I saw a man with a knief covered in blood...we were in a fenced in back yard on a slope...the dog in the yard tried to stop the man but he just killed it. He jumped the fence and I ran after him yelling and no one seemed to hear me except him so he ran.
I yelled at him to come back...though that doesn't seem to be the most logical thing to do when talking to a murder..and he said drop dead and I yelled back you wish...then he yelled back something that really puzzeled me...it was "well you'd better before you have my kid." I didn't get it...but it made me angry and then it was ESP that kicked in. I've never been able to manifest it in the form of like hurting people or moving anything more than a pencil...shatter glass, makeing predictions and seeing things like with Quita's letter that's easy but not like what happened in the dream. It was like my anger manifested itself into a gust like...like Kamui from X you know? The force pushed him over and then this boy appeared before me it was weird. He was soo pale and his eyes were such a pale blue and his hair barely blonde...He starteled me and his fingers touched my cross chocker and then his hand grabbed my throat. I felt shap nails did into my skin and I couldn't breath. His face didn't change expression as I fought against him. Then a woman appeared and he let go of me.She made everything disappear and everything was black and I started to cry. shewas like a mother she cradeled me and walked me away. Then I woke up...it's so weird...among other weird things...a Hawk has been following me since yesterday and a butterfly died in my hands in front of the house, a glass shattered in my hands but I wasn't upset enough to make taht happen, and for some reason no cuts where found at the time but then today I had two cuts on each hand bleeding away and one on my foot...it's all so odd....I need rest...or coffee...maybe I'm just hallucinating...who knows

Mood: Wondering
Song of Choice:"Sympathy" by the Goo Goo Dolls
Topic: A Chat with Setusna

::Kim is sitting on the roof of the Sanctuary staring up at the stars. Setsuna appears from a trap door and sits next to her:::
Setsuna:What are you thinking about?
::Kim shakes her head::
Kim:I'm not sure...you know people...people always seem to want something they can't have and then one day it seems that...that they just get tired of wanting it you know? Maybe?
Setsuna: What do you mean?
Kim:I'm not sure it's something Quita said about letting go...it made a lot of sense and I don't know if that's it you know?
Setsuna: Maybe she's right...maybe it is time to let go...for good this time...maybe not all at once but...soon.
Kim: I think you're right...and Quita..::chuckle:: you know what's the messed up part?
Setsuna: hmm?
Kim: Peter has been the best boyfriend I've ever had ::LOL::
Setsuna:::smirk:: Yeah I know he has. Angel hasn't quiet been able to cut it has he?
Kim:::shakes her head::...you know...you can only try so hard I guess...I guess Peter and I have fought the good fight for so long that...that now we know it's time to think about what we're fighting for.
Setsuna:That is true both you and he will make soma men out there very happy...your both very loyal and caring...I wonder why you can't seem to find the right guys.
Kim : ::Leans against Setsuns:: I guess you gotta...you gotta know how bad it's been before you can know how good you have it.
Setsuna:::nodds and puts his arm around her:: It's hard to lead the life you choose when all your luck seems to be bad and you can't seem to find a single good thing...and you live with the regrets and then one day you wake up and you realize...everything is good now...I think...maybe if you hope long enough.
Kim: How long do you think I'll have to hope?
Setsuna:::shakes his head:: I don't know but remember...hope dies last...
Kim:::Yawn:: I think your right I think it's time...to hope for something better...
Setsuna:::Kisses her forehead:: Good girl...::rubbs her arm::
Kim: I hope that it's out there somewhere...for me...and Peter...and everyone...
Setsuna:: For your sakes so do I.

Mood: Cold! ::SHIVER::
Song of Choice:The X series opeing theme
Topic: Lots of Things

I had a bad dream last night...I've been having bad dreams almost everynight, but this one really pushed the wrong button you know?

I dreampt that I was sitting in a Cafe I guess or something of that nature drinking coffee and writing something. I was older too perhaps 20 or so and I kept glanceing at my watch I assume I was waiting for someone. Then someone sat down across from me.

I looked up and there was Angel. He wasn't young...he had grown up and his face wasn't that of a teenage boy but a young man even in my dream I blushed. We exchanged niceties and then when I went to take his hand he pulled away.

"Thing are different now then 4 years ago." He said

I was confused but nodded and he contiuned.

"I promised you a lot of things when I was younger, but things have changed. I've met some...and we're getting married soon."

The shock was unparralled. I sat there in somewhat of a daze then I put on my best fake smile and answered.

"Really? Oh that's great,I'm happy for you. LOL you didn't really think me to expect you to keep those promises did you? Oh yeah just young words with no meaning right?"

I had a cell phon in my hand and I went in to the menu while taking and did the ring selection. Then I excused my self "to take" the "call"

When I was far enough away I called Peter and asked him to come get me. Peter asked what was wrong and I told him I couldn't explain just then.

When I came back to the table I apologized for the interruption and told him Peter needed me to help him pick out a present for his boyfriend's birthday then chatted about his lady friend. Painful indeed. I was so thankful when I saw Peter's truck pull up.

I practically sprang out of the seat. The good bye was awkard and we didn't know what to say so I said it. We shook hands and then I kissed him on the cheek and I told him I hoped he'd be happy. Then I walked outside and walked across the street without looking(something I'm notorious for) and cired my way to Peter...well part of the way.

I think a car hit me or something becuase I remember walking then the ground and my side aching. Then Peter was hovering over me. He was older too and his good looks had grown but they were twisted up in concern. He picked me up and carried me out of the road. Then he hld my hand and talked to me, yelled at me not to die, to stay with him. Then Angel walked by didn't even look down at me didn't do a thing simply left. Peter cradled me and asked me if I had any pain, Peter cried and that's all I remeber things got dark after that.

I have no idea what to make of it all. but to say the least it really really bothered me. as almost unhappenable as it is it still bothered me. Is it taht I don't mean anything to him is this a vision? I wish I knew something.geeze I had more to tell but It hink that's enough...later people
Kim

Mood: Tired
Song of Choice:"Finally" by TRUST COMPANY
Topic: What a Day....

I swear…I hate some people so much….Okay today was not the best of days. I had to deal with Haylee more actively then I’d like to. Firstly she won’t leave Jonnell alone. She took Trent from her and then when Jonnell and I started to hang out with Josh she all of a sudden develops this burning passion for Josh. I mean to hell with bickering over men I mean whatever but don’t go after some one just because someone else is.

Well then Haylee started talking about me and I heard and a whole bunch of people came and backed up my suspicion and I simply told them that I couldn’t care less what her opinion was because I never liked her and never pretended to be and also that if she had anything to say to me she could come tell me just like I tell her. (Last week she asked me is I was her friend and if I liked her at all. So I straight up told her to her face I wasn’t her friend never planned on being her friend and no I didn’t like her at all because she acts like a 5th grader.)

Well So anyway then she goes to Jonnell and basically orders her to stop hanging with me and go with her and Jonnell I swear she just snapped her cap and cused the chick out! She went on for a while almost made the girl cry and said she would rather be my friend because I’ve hung with her since we both got here and I was a good friend.

Later we joked around and she said it was a load of bull that she just hung with me because my stoic melancholy so-cal attitude brought around cute guys and she was just using me.

Fun Fun Fun you know? Oh well um there was somehting else…I can’t remember…Group work due to morrow you’ll get the 411 on that tomorrow though too tired now.

Oh I got in trouble for passing notes in class today Me and Dan were writing back and forth and my teacher walked up behind me while we were doing that and he read everything and I didn;t care I knew he was there and then he goes that doesn't look like class work to me.

So I look up and go hey mr griffin it's not actually so he goes would you like to share witht he class? and I smile all big and go SURE!! and I stand up and I start to read and explain what was going on and all the background and everyone was laughin and in the end he told me that was enough I swear so so funny Dan was like aren't you a brave lady Dan speaks in proper english all the time and he;sa mega geek but he's 100% cool

Oh well um that’s it I think…Johnathan is moving to Oklahoma on Thursday it made me sad.

then I kinda became the walkin nicotine patch among other things Well Jonnell, Josh and Mayson all smoke and I'm trying to get them to stop and then they never go to class and I've started making them go to class....and now that's really it okay incohernent slang-ness over!
Love Ya
Kim
PS...Peter tell me about the field trip! Cat...Hi how are you you need to update! I hope your AP Essay went well! Lum FEEL BETER! Nori Yo GAMES Love you! Quita Hiya chick!! Jr....your no one special

Mood: Vengeful
Song of Choice:I don't know I know it's the TRUST COMPANY CD though
Topic: PH34R US!!!!

Spork Fic Mega Ruff Unpolish Just Finished Mega Special Vengence EDITION!!

The scene opens to the spork girls sitting around a table in the Sanctuary’s Soup kitchen.

Kim Everyone got that?
Cat You bet
Lum ::nodds::

The girls head up the stairs to the main level that is the Sanctuary. Setsuna stands waiting for them.
Setsuna The door is in the perfect place according to the star charts
Kim::kisses his cheek:: Good Job which poor?
Setsuna ::Points upward:: Five doors up.::He stoups down::
Kim ::Places herself in his arms:: Lets do this
Setsuna::Flies the girls up to the door one by one:: are you sure me and the other Boys shouldn’t go?
Kim this is woman’s work. ::steps through the door there is a blue shimmering hole in the bottom and the girls jump through they land sliently inside the Boys’s closet.

Kim pulls out a spork with silver crosses on it. With a swift wave and Sanctuary Strength! With that a time stops and she is surrounded by a white light. In her background there are white feathers. Soon the light wraps around her and forms wings that surround her completely when they open they reveal Cross Wings! Her outfit consists of white lace up knee high combat boots, a white mini skirt, White choker with a cross, silver bells at the wrists of a white peasant shirt with little angel wings in the back. Now silver bells are slung across her chest and shoulder. With that time pauses around Lauren as she begins her Pretty Magical Girl Transformation. Wicked Rose Power! She is surrounded by red light and roses fill the back ground the light turns into a bud and when it blooms Lauren is now Black Lotus! Attired in black pumps, black mini skirt, Red ribbon in her hair, another around her waist and black peasant shirt with little demon wings. She also now has daggers hanging from her waist on top of her skirt and across her shoulder and chest. Catherine pulls out a glass spork yelling Glass Globe! Time pauses once more and Catherine is engulfed in sparkles. Her background is a mirror as the sparkles consume her the mirror shatters and the Glass Guardian is presented The ensemble consisted of a clear heels, a silk skirt with a glittery screen of fabric on the outside, pouches hung from her and a see though peasant shirt with pixie wings with strap shirt under. But now as a little add on she has a bow and arrow !

Soundlessly the girls open the closet door and the festivities begin.

Lum and Cat began collecting his clothes in Cat’s puches. Kim steps over to his bed. The thought of ringing the Bell of Eternal Sleep crossed her mind, but she halted herself. Instead she rang the Bell of Solid SLumber Until Dawn.

Kim We got until Dawn lets hurry

Kim helps them stuff clothes into the bag. Once they are full they open the window. Cat hops out hovering in midair.
Cat Okay toss them to me
Kim and Lum toss them out to Cat who throws her pixie dust on them and causes them to float in the air with her.
Kim grabbed one end of the sheets of the Boy’s bed and Lum grabbed the other then flew out the window cradeling him.

As they flew Cat left bags of clothes in front of homes she knew had many children and not enough money to keep up with the ware and tear of clothing them.

They finally reached their destination, CHS. Kim wrapped the sheet around the Boy just in case he had nothing on and then strung him to the flag pole and raised him up just as the sun was rising Lum fluttered up the Boy dagger in hand. She placed on his throat just as he awoke.

Lum If you scream I swear I’ll kill you

the Boy’s eyes darted to her face

From the ground Cat drew an arrow and placed it on her bow aiming right at his heart.
Boy ::shivering:: Who are you? What do you want from me?

Kim Some vengeful woman seeking to settle a score
Lum You hurt someone very dear to use someone very special to the three of us
Cat and now I think we’ll take out that frustration on you

Boy What? I don’t understand. What are you talking about?

Lum laughted bitterly are you saying you don’t even know?
Cat How typical
Kim fluttered up Oh let’s see we are in the states aren’t we lets do this…democratically. Well have a small trial here…we’ll read your offenses and then you may if we see fit plead your defense and from there we’ll decided what to do with you. But to keep from being interrupted ::Rings the Bell of Spans:: I think I’ll stop time…besides the sky is beautiful and I happen to like 70 degrees with a breeze. Cat would you like to read the list or should I?

Cat Nothing would give me a greater pleasure .::Cat states the defendants full name:: are you prepared to hear the charges against you?

The Boy nodds

Cat very well First count Repeated Thoughtless rejection Second Lying Third Arrogance Fourth Misleading Fifth Sleepless Nights Sixths false hope Seventh Repeated Betrayal Eighth Causing Pain Ninth false friendship and Tenth just plain being annoying.

The Boy looked completely dumbfounded

Lum I will outline the counts if no one has any objections

Kim and Cat ::nod::

Lum First Count Repeated Thoughtless Rejection ::states Boy’s full name:: did you know of Peter’s affections for you?

Boy Yes

Lum so you purposely told him that you quote “didn’t see him” as a Boyfriend? Or perhaps that you weren’t looking for one?

Boy I suppose

Lum So not only did you through your faulty friendship, count nine, you repeatedly lied, second count, and Mislead him, fourth count , and into thinking you didn’t want a Boyfriend true?

Boy well no!

Lum So you told him you WERE looking for a Boyfriend?

Boy Yes but!

Lum so which is it?

Boy I don’t know…

Lum very well I’ll just continue then so then with your repeated betrayals, seventh count, you gave him false hope, sixth count, into thinking that perhaps he could be your Boyfriend. Thus causing him many many sleepless nights thinking about you in God knows how many ways but also causing him oceans of pain, but ultimately just thoughlessly rejecting him again and again, first count…don’t you think that’s a little Arrogant and annoying?…third count…tenth count


Boy hangs head in shame….Yes…Yes I do

Kim Well I consider that a guilty plea don’t you?

Cat I suppose so

Lum Now what to do with him?

Boy starts to cry

Lum Scared of Death Boy?

Boy shook his head

Kim What then?

Boy There are so many things I haven’t done!

Cat such as?

Boy Oh I don’t know true love is one!

Kim ::Darts in front of his face:: OH I Don’t know I think it was offered to you placed at your feet handed to you on a silver platter and you simply pushed it aside. And for some unkown reason he still came coming back to you over and over again. Taking you in when you had pain, being your friend true at times when it was most convinent for you you did the same but then you went and stabbed him in the back! You gimme one good reason why we shouldn’t do the same to you!?

Boy ::tears streamed down his face shivering the wind messes up his hair:: There isn’t one

Lum Damn right there isn’t one!

Kim Stop your crying we aren’t going to kill you that would be too easy

Boy :Looks up confused:

Cat Do you know what fear is?

Boy ::Scared:: What I’m feeling now

Cat do you ever want to feel this again?

Boy NO

Cat good then we have an understanding. You treat Peter with some respect and honesty like any human being would and we’ll let you live. We aren’t ordering you to be his Boyfriend but you are already his friend and not a very good one so were telling you in a very forceful manner to be a better one you got it?

Boy ::nodds::

Cat Good Let’s go home then

Boy Wait whose going to get me down?

Lum Who always saves your ass?

::Girls laugh::

::Peter pulls up in his truck. Stepping out with a piece of paper he found on his closet:

Peter~

Hey Sweetheart there’s a surprise waiting for you at the Flag Pole!
Have Fun Love you
Cat, Lum and Kim
PS Bring extra clothes!

He pulls the bag out of the car and sees the Boy and then runs to the flag pole getting him down::

Mood: Deadly, Destructive, Demonic Destiny Divider
Song of Choice:"Last Resort" by Papa Roach
Topic: PH34R M3!!!

I'm sure you all know what happened...what follows is a conversation between two loyal Fag HAgs havin a bitchfit. Okay read and see.
Bishie Queen says:
I'm gettin' to it -- just got on . . .
Sanctuary Maiden says:
sorry but I mean I'm just grrr
Bishie Queen says:
If it's about Him, Keeper of Strife told me about it at school
Sanctuary Maiden says:
yes it is
Bishie Queen says:
All about it -- icky
Bishie Queen says:
He's(the boy no the Keeper) such an IDIOT
Sanctuary Maiden says:
I want to beat him to a pulp!
Bishie Queen says:
I want to friggin' kill the little bastard
Sanctuary Maiden says:
What a jerk he knows how Strife feels and he does it anyway!
Bishie Queen says:
I know! And he's stupid, too!
Bishie Queen says:
This guy is TWENTY for God's sake
Sanctuary Maiden says:
SO STUPID!
Sanctuary Maiden says:
A CollegE GUY
Sanctuary Maiden says:
I mean HELLO
Sanctuary Maiden says:
he's known him what 5 minutes
Bishie Queen says:
I know!! Grr
Bishie Queen says:
If they ever "do" anything, the college guy could go to jail
Bishie Queen says:
To hell with both of them, I say
Sanctuary Maiden says:
Sachetory rape
Sanctuary Maiden says:
Too true
Sanctuary Maiden says:
why can't Strife like a nice boy?
Bishie Queen says:
I don't know!
Bishie Queen says:
Sigh
Sanctuary Maiden says:
he';s not commin to AWA
Bishie Queen says:
Nooo waaay!
Sanctuary Maiden says:
I swear I'll kill him with the bed sheets
Bishie Queen says:
YES
Bishie Queen says:
I'll help
Bishie Queen says:
I'll hold him down while you strangle him
Sanctuary Maiden says:
and stuff him in the tolet and flush him away
Bishie Queen says:
YES!
Sanctuary Maiden says:
STUPID STUPID STUPID!!!
Bishie Queen says:
There's no describing how utterly PISSED OFF I am at Him
Bishie Queen says:
You too, I'm sure
Sanctuary Maiden says:
I mean ahh there aren't words
Sanctuary Maiden says:
only animal sounds
Bishie Queen says:
If only you were here -- it's almost laughable to think of what you'd do
Bishie Queen says:
lol
Sanctuary Maiden says:
I would slam his scrawny ass against those lockers soo fast
Sanctuary Maiden says:
I swear it would be complete Yuy mode
Bishie Queen says:
And I'd watch and laugh at the bastard
Sanctuary Maiden says:
I'd kill him with my rainbow belt
Bishie Queen says:
lol
Sanctuary Maiden says:
GRRRRRRRR
Bishie Queen says:
I never liked him from the start
Bishie Queen says:
He's so IRRITATING
Bishie Queen says:
And STUPID
Sanctuary Maiden says:
I know now it's just pure hate
Bishie Queen says:
Yes, I agree completely!
Sanctuary Maiden says:
grrrr!!!
Sanctuary Maiden says:
I just want to beat him!!!!!
Bishie Queen says:
Me too!!
Sanctuary Maiden says:
Yang is so winning this afternoon
Bishie Queen says:
All throughout lunch, I was holding myself back from trying to throw him against the wall and wringing his neck
Bishie Queen says:
I didn't even look at him the rest of the day
Sanctuary Maiden says:
I would be on him like white on rice on a paper plate on a styraphom cup with some mil all up in a snow storm!!!
Bishie Queen says:
lol
Bishie Queen says:
I don't doubt it
Sanctuary Maiden says:
I swear.....that boy ever crosses my pass I will bust a Kome Beat first greetings later!
Bishie Queen says:
I will join you!
Bishie Queen says:
We shall BEAT with righteous fervor!
Sanctuary Maiden says:
CAtherine will aid and so will Nori but you and I will lead the assault
Bishie Queen says:
Indeed!
Sanctuary Maiden says:
My Bishies will have to tear me from his corpse!
Bishie Queen says:
::grabs Spork::
Bishie Queen says:
I think it's time for a new fic, Sanctuary Maiden!!
Sanctuary Maiden says:
::LIFTS SPORK INTO AIR:: THere was one in the works two actually a specail chibi edition but now they will have to wait!
Bishie Queen says:
THIS IS WAR!!
Sanctuary Maiden says:
I indeed will have one no procrastination on this one I will type it tonight and tomorrow morning I will have it ready.
Sanctuary Maiden says:
For nothing motivates me more then Strife in Danger!
Sanctuary Maiden says:
I'm going to start now but I have to get off the internet because I have like 6 other ppl IMing me and I just can't have taht.
Bishie Queen says:
lol
Bishie Queen says:
All right!
Sanctuary Maiden says:
I will talk to you later
Sanctuary Maiden says:
good night
Bishie Queen says:
You too!
Bishie Queen says:
G'night!
Sanctuary Maiden says:
g'night

Mood: Ponderous
Song of Choice "Hover" by TRUST COMPANY
Topic: Who knows

Well I've been extremely neglectful with keeping up with this haven't I? I'm sorry guys no I'm not dead it's just been lots of little things adding up to big things you know?

Oh well um let's see where to start....i guess I should start with the biggest small problem Stacy, an Irish girl with a bad dye job and a wanna be a hybrid ska-goth. She broke up with her boyfriend Shane. So Shane was pissed and threatened her and got over it then Got attached to Jonnell and Stacy took that as a sign of "betrayl" from Jonnell. So there was a spilt in the mass that is the group. Stacy preached about loyalty, and blah blah blah and then she said to pick sides.

Well the crowd split all except me. So I went off to my own cornor and got that weird look from everyone. So Stacy "Well I see we all know who the traitor is in this group." I swear to God Mayson, Keith and Joah automatically went to me and put their hands on me too keep me from jumpin on her and killin her. Once I promised not to touch her I got up in her face.

To make a long story short I told her I owed her nothing and I sure as hell never claimed to be her friend and just cause I off handedly talked to her at lunch didn't mean I was so I have no idea where she expected me to stand by here when she's turing molehills into mountains. Then I backed off and told Jonnel calm as anything I just didn't care what she did it was her love life I couldn't care less.

That was Monday, Tuesday Stacy was trying to talk to me and I was like whatever. Eventually me beign the Neutral one brought the people to me. Mostly the guys the women were still heavily into it.

Other than that Josh has been trying to get to know Jonnell and me better I guess. He's okay I guess. Jonnell did his hair. He does pot like no tomorrow and smokes cigarettes, but it's mostly afterschool so when we see him he's pretty together. He's a smart guy and has some interesting out looks on life and there are somethings about him I truelly respect. Like the fact that so many girls have asked him out and he turns them down because he says he knows he can't make them happy. He says he doesn't want any woman ever falling in love with him because he says he knows he'll only cause them pain and he doesn't want to make some poor innocent girl guilty only of loving him pain, sorrow,and tears.

Um...I've been talking to a guy named Mayson a lot. He's this interesting guy who is kinda a lot like Josh but he doesn't do weed but he does smoke cigarettes like nobody's business. Jonnell and Joel have been poking fun and stuff but really when a handsome boy sits on a curb near you long enough having that perfect stoic, melancholy, pained looked on his face what more can a girl do then find out about him? In anycase yeah he's smart too for the most part.

What else? There was the Trent incident here's the summary. Jonnell had this super dupper wowy crush on This boy named Trent and Halee (the freshman hoe that I hate and her brother too) went off and screwed around with him and that caused a big commotion and what not and oh Lord I swear it was such an idiotic mess and I couldn't care less but I had to play peace-keepper. I swear everyone acts like they are in the 8th grade.

Keith got his car taken away-he got into a wreck more honestly...he got halled to school by the police and got suspended for the next two days. Kittie got into a fight and lost some teeth.Um other than that everything is all right.

Oh I bought Ranma 1/2 Volume 2 FINALLY! I laughed so hard. I think I'm going to spend my money on Plushies or Manga. But yeah that's about it...Oh and the new layout hahaha. um yeah I'm sure you've figured out who is which if not just hit the comment box and I'll set up a list okay? Oh and Yes every card is a link except one. Feel free to tell me what you think of the site. Yes there is a reason I did X/1999 and Tarot cards but that'll be in another entry cause I have homework to do. Later guys,
Kim

Mood:Ready to Gamble
Song of Choice:"Flesh aNd Bone" By ALIEN ANT FARM
Topic: Kim is...

Things I found:

At 14, Kimberly is a veteran of Toronto's sex trade
(okay...sure...whatever if getting hit on by the Porn King Counts)

Kimberly is a loving girl with a sweet demeanor and a charming smile.
(Awww!)

Kimberly is full of energy and always ready to go!
(Damn that sounds like a personal ad)

Kimberly is an attractive child who is very personable, intelligent and articulate
(okay...)
The Kimberly is a deluxe, European boutique suite hotel, Unique in spirit with gracious hospitality, offering European style elegance and service
(lol ha for all you jerks that rejected me take that!)

Shane, who happens to be in the street, sees the danger Kimberly is in and hurls himself out of his wheelchair (he was paralyzed in a bomb explosion) to save her
(aww! Thank you sweethearT!)

Kimberly is among those few who have discovered their mission in life
(To destroy ignorance and prejudice!)

Kimberly is a pretty pre-teen with a wonderful smile
(Thank you!)

Heavenly Kimberly is a handbag for all seasons!
(Carry me!)

Kimberly is the prettiest cheerleader as she roots for her favorite team in her red & white uniform & pom poms!
(LOL!!! That's so funny oh for future refernce there were 4 typos in that statement)

Kimberly is the first Bond Woman to appear in A View To A Kill.
(008...Bond, Kim Bond)

Kimberly is a certified and registered yoga teacher with the nationally recognized Yoga Alliance
(DO THE YOGA NOW!)

Kimberly is set to spin at some of the biggest parties on the gay and lesbian circuit
(cause Peter wanted to have some fun :))

If there is a need for a true beauty, Kimberly is sure to show up
(I have arrived)

Kimberly is woman that I love, and the woman that loves me. Kimberly is my wife. She is my life. She is my love. She amazes me everyday!
(Who are you and why aren't you 17 and in Hinnesville?)

Kimberly is aka "Daydream's Next Generation
(FREAK THAT WAS MY CODE NAME NOW I HAVE TO CHANGE IT)

Kimberly isresponsible and a dream to work with..
(lol why thank you)

Name: Kimberly. Age: 19. Height:5'6". Bust: 36C-24-36. Hair: Brunette. Description: Kimberly is a true outlaw
(LOL those measurements are so wrong)

No one can accuse Michael of being slow - he finally figured out that Kimberly is evil. Michael was rescued from the mire by Megan, the good witch
(No nono megan is a hoe and she's trying to kill you! what in the world I'm the good one!)

Kimberly is the founder of the TAPS Foundation (Teens Against Premarital Sex)
(I wish)

And that's it I was to tired to keep going.

Mood: Enthusiastic
Song of Choice: "Downfall" by Trust Company
Topic:CHA-CHING! Power of The Three Fold

HEY Guys My positive Ying Yang Attitude paid off! I promise I mean well let me explain.

Lately I've been using the 3 Fold Spell Casters Law (which is any spell you cast will come back to you but with three times the power) So I've been trying to be as friendly as possible and paying it FWD you know? Some one lends me 3 DVDs I lend them 4, someone buys me a soda next time I buy them a soda and a cookie you know paying the favor fwd so people will be more encouraged to act positively to one another.

Well in English I hadn't done the homework in four days and this girl asked me if I had any of it(in this class homework is taken up once in a while) So I told her I'd help her do it and once I'd helped her later I just sat down and remeber what I'd said. So that was nice.

But here's the real Wow you know. I've been complaing lately about having no money. Well today I gave Joel Two dollars for his lunch and what I was going to eat I have to Ashley. So The stomach was going crazy you know. Well Stephanie gave me a whole bag a chips the huge kinda. And later this afternoon my mom paid me the $50 she's owed me for like 2 years and my babysitting gig payed me in advance too!

I HAVE MONEY TO SPEND ON ME!! I know this is going to sound bad but I'm so glad I got all of your presents in advance because now I can happily and guilt freely spend all this money on ME!

Man what do I buy...Manga, Plushi, DVD, I JUST DON'T KNOW!

Man I'm overjoyed! I can buy Manga which is my obsesion! People Feel Free to submit suggestions!

Mood: Wired
Song of Choice: The Yu Yu Hakasho Opening Theme
Topic:Ponderosness-ness-ness

::Yawn:: I’m kinda tired and really I have next to nothing to say…My brain has been fried trying to read Tess of the ‘Dumbervilles…Such a dumb book I swear! The basic is this a girl goes off and gets raped…and she kinda percerviers but she mostly spends her life beating herself up about it like it was her fault then she marries this loser that once he finds out treats her like trash! I mean I hate to sound sexist but this book had to be written by a straight macho man…I mean the whole book she is like the meekest thing I mean such a poor representation of the female spirit.
::sigh::
Whatever I’m not going to finish it I’m going to get the cliffnotes of I’m just going to fail this damn thing.

On a much happier note I talked to one of my favorite literary masters last night (Lum for the people who are just clueless) and she helped me pick out my next blog layout X by CLAMP (As if you people didn’t know that XD Man there’s a joke) Anywho look FWD to that whenever I find some free time.

On an equally happy note to one of my Favorite birthday ballad singers (Cat people) Has been updating more often and she has also been using that lovely thing down there called a comment box—which too few of you USE!

What else…I talked to Games a few nights ago Hedgehog still makes me feel better when I feel down and out.

Peter! You better not get depressed on me! For I will break out a Kome from Blue Seed on HIM. (Note: Kome from Blue Seed(the series I borrowed and have taped I highly recommend it in it’s perfect collection form it’s soooo good I love Kusanagi!) is this orange haired-pink jump suit wearing-blue head band sporin’-machine gun totein’ tom boy that got transferred to the TAC because she had discipline problems. In the First Episode she finds her commanding officer and promptly beats the crap outta him I’ve liked her ever since.

Well shoot While I’m on the subject of Blue Seed let me give it a brief run down. It’s about Momiji Fujimiya and she is the Kushinada. She (when sacrificed) has the power to trap the Aragami(an evil plant thing that has been trying to destroy man kind for Centuries) The Kushinada bloodline was split when Momiji and Katie(her twin sister) were born thus the Aragami awoke and are trying to take over the world. Originally Katie was the Kushinada but she disappeared so Momiji is now the Sacrafice chick. Her Protector, Crush, and boy that is forever tryin to check what underwear she has on under her skirt is Kusanagi. Momiji’s Competition for Kusanagi is Sakura the bimbo blonde US fortune teller Aragami Buster. I HATER HER. Kusangi is rude, he’s sweet, he’s loving, he’s stupid he really is quiet the character. Momiji is now part of the TAC a organization that keeps track of the Aragami, But will they be able to stop them without having to kill Momiji and kill Kusanagi let them And who gets Kusanagi and what about Katie where is she and what are Kusanagi’s feelings for her I mean he was her protector originally!! Even I don’t know I’m only on Espisode 14 and there are 28! SUCH A GOOD SERIES!!

Well yeah that’s enough of that…

Yo Nori what’s up you took the SAT already…Peter when are you taking yours I was thinking November or Perhaps March I don’t know.

Lum and Cat your box is being stuffed but well I have odd shaped stuff so…it may take 2 boxes sorry!

Blah I’m tired I’m going to watch more Blue Seed I gotta know who gets Kusanagi IT HAD BETTER BE MOMIJI!!!

Mood: Well wishing
Song of Choice: “Depending on You" by Ayumi Hamaski
Topic: Ying and Yangs Might Luck Spell!

Ying and Yang :THE FOLLOWING IS A CHINESE GOOD LUCK TANTRA TOTEM.

Ying:You may not believe in this but the advice is great! Read all the way down, you might learn something!!!

Yang:1.Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.

Ying:2.Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other.

Yang: 3.Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want.

Ying: 4. When you say, "I love you", mean it.

Yang: 5.When you say, "I'm sorry", look the person in the eye.

Ying:6.Be engaged at least six months before you get married.

Yang: 7.Believe in love at first sight.

Ying: 8.Never laugh at anyone's dreams. People who don't have dreams don't have much.

Yang: 9.Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely.

Ying:10.In disagreements, fight fairly. Please No name calling.

Yang: 11.Don't judge people by their relatives.

Ying: 12.Talk slowly but think quickly.

Yang: 13.When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, "Why do you want to know?"

Ying: 14.Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk.

Yang: 15.Say "bless you" when you hear someone sneeze.

Ying: 16.When you lose, don't lose the lesson.

Yang: 17. Remember the three R's: Respect for self; Respect for others; Responsibility for all your actions.

Ying: 18.Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.

Yang: 19.When you realize you've made a mistake,take immediate steps to correct it.

Ying:20.Smile when picking up the phone.The caller will hear it in your voice.

Yang: 21.Spend some time alone.

Mood: AHHH
Song of Choice: “Fly High!" by Ayumi Hamaski
Topic: Peter try! :a Kim Doorway Misadventure

::Kim runs around the sanctuary opening one door after another and swearing. She wizes past Setsuna making his hair ruffel::
Setsuna: Kim what are you doing?
Kim:I gotta find which door leads to Peter's closet so I can offer him "a good-old-fashioned-Kim peptalk" which I was unable to do earlier because I don't have school today so I slept in!
Setsuna: Waking up at 6:30 is sleeping in?
Kim: HA FOUND IT.
:: Kim steps through door::
Setsuna Kim no that's not the right door!
::Kim steps through the other side and promptly trips::
Josh: What the F--k?
::Kim looks up and sees the dashing youngest Reitz boy. Kim promptly blushes and gets up::
Kim: I Am So SORRY!
::She then slowly walks out of the room and pushes Peter's door open::
Kim: Peter I--
::Peter wide eyed and confused is trying to put on his shirt thankfully already having his pants. Kim covers her face and closes the door waiting on the otherside::
Kim:Sorry! ::mumbles:: Knock on doors...yeah got it with boys you knock on doors kinda like guys they should knock for girls...got it....Thank God he was mostly dressed ahhh that would have been so embarassing for me...knock yes knock
::Peter opens door, fully dressed, and Kim falls on the ground::
Peter:Kim honey, I love you but girl what is wrong with you? Commin into my house while I'm trying to get dressed.
Kim:Yes yes I know but look listen up I got somethings I need to say.

::gets up::

Okay first you're going to do fine! You're a very attractive young man and intellegent and well spoken and quiet the catch! Okay and if that boy can't see that then I hate to sound cliche but Dammit he's not good enough for you!

As much as you care for him you can't keep laying rose petals at his feet! You can't keep putting yourself through this pain. I don't want people I care about doing the same agnst ridden things I do!

You should have someone to love you and adore you and appreciate you and snuggle you know and well you just need a boy form of Me, but that's not the point!

He should be grateful someone as dashing as you would show interest in him let alone ask him out! So stop being nervous because you two are very good friends and even if he doesn't return the exact same feelings as yours well God he's not going to throw you out of his life! You two are too close for that and I believe he has been through many of the same feelings you are going through and thus he shouldn't react as badly as one may think. I hope I'm not giving his matureity too much credit. but I honestly believe that even it a lot of times I find it hard to see what you see in him I'm sure that your affection for him are well founded and that if you deem him worthy who am I to question it? I don't think you'd care so much about him unless he desierved it at least in your views you know!

I mean oh shoot these ideas are just a jumble but you got me right!? Man I know you'll do fine! And if by some GOD FORBID chance you come home a little down trotten you still got me and Lum and Cat and Nori and we love you. Sure you'd rather have him at times but Peter please be happy with our affection and don't do anything insane! Okay? Oh and if he hurts you...tell him to watch his back! I got a sniper rifle here and damn it I could pick him off at more than 800 meters no sweat. And I know Lum could hack into the cops files and make it look like it never happened...That's right FEAR ME AND MY CRAZED I LOVE PETER ACTIONS. I am your Fag Hag and as such I'll protect you.

::Peter hugs Kim tight::
Peter: Thank you Kim but I don't think it'll come to that. Now um...how did you get here?
Kim: ::blush:: through Josh's closet...
Peter: Kim! Now why do you have--
Kim: NO it wasn't like that it was suppose to be the far end of your closet! That way I could knock...well now that I know the value of it but yeah and you could let me out but I guess there was a shift in the star point that tells where the door will open and since this one door that's fixed out of 1000 doors and it is fixed to your house it can appear anywhere.
Peter: Oh God how do I explain this to Josh?
Kim : I don't know but tell him that I was glad he was dressed.
::Peter gives Kim that well you shoulda knocked look. Kim knocks on Josh's door.::
Josh: What!?
Kim: ::In a small voice:: Can I go back through your closet?
::Josh throws open the door with a force that pulled Kim's hair forward::
Josh: You are so f--king strange you know that? God Peter where do you get these kind of friends? Why the hell are you coming out of my closet.
Kim: I told you he hated me. Well whatever I messed up I shoulda come out through Peter's closet sorry geeze no need to be jerk.
::Kim stomps over to the closet::
Kim:Good Luck Peter! Have a nice day Joshua!
::Kim closes the closet door and a shining blue hole appears in the floor which she hops through::
Josh: Call me Josh!
::Kim open the door that leads to the sanctuary. Which has also shifted to a door no longer on ground level but about 5 doorway lengths from the floor. She screams as she falls Forward. Setsuna flies up and catches her:::
Setsuna So how's Peter's brother? And Peter of course.
Kim: You knew? Why didn't you tell me?
Setsuna: Well you were in such a rush but I did try.

Mood:Sleepy
Song of Choice: “It's Over” by the Goo Goo Dolls
Topic: Another Ying and Yang Explain what's going on!

::Yang walks out in short black cotton shorts and a red tank top::
Yang Kim: Yes adoring masses we are hear yet again because Kim is still sleeping::Yawn::Which isn't a bad Idea but someone's gotta let the world know what's going on...What a girl can't dress down once in a while?
::Ying is dragging out a big lady liberty scale. She is wearing lil white shorts and a blue tank top::
Ying Kim: Okay here's about the synopsis. Ready Yang?
::Yang Picks up a chip that's about as big as she is::
Yang Kim:Shoot either way I'm going to do more work then you.
Ying KimI'll read the list.
~*~Spent the Weekend with Peter ::Ying throws 3 chips on the right side of the scale.
~*~Developed a small Crush one Keith ::Ying Throws a chip on the right side::
~*~Found out Keith had a girlfriend ::Yang throws 3 chips on the left side::
~*~And later a fiancee ::Yang throws 3 chips on the left side::
~*~Talked to Quita ::3 Right side chips::
~*~Quita Told me things about Angel ::2 CHips on both sides::
~*~Help Joel ::1/2 a chip on the right side::
~*~Joel Helped me ::2 chips on the right::
~*~Dressed up like a gangseter chica and Joel was a thug:1/2 a chip on the right::
~*~Got paid ::1 chip on right::
~*~Watched breakdancers ::3 chips on the right::
~*~ They let me hold the 'boom box' ::1 chip on the right::
~*~Helped Joel Hussel people for money ::one on each::
~*~Let Him keep all the money::one and one::
~*~Keith's best fried asked me out ::3 on the left::
~*~Talked to Geimer Twice ::4 right chips::
~*~Talked to Cat ::3 happy chips::
~*~Sent out a letters to Geimer and Peter ::one right::
Okay know lets add! 29 Happy things vs 13 Sad things so I guess it was an okay week hm? MAybe oh well we'll come back later today and tell you if that score still stands! Bye!
Yang Kim:Later!

Mood:Achiy…in an emotional sense
Song of Choice: “Zidan and Dagger’s song” form the Final Fantasy IX Plus soundtrack (Compiled by the wonderful Peter Reitz)
Topic: Parrel’s in this life

::Setsuna stands in the Sanctuary looking up to Kim’s Hammock. Akira sits reading a book and smoking a cigarette. Heero sits on the floor cleaning his gun. None of the bishies have fallen asleep except for Sano on Kenshin and Kenshin is sharpening his sword::
Heero:Setsuna why are you worrying? She’s a strong girl she’ll be fine in a few days.
Setsuna: I can’t help it she’s not herself
Akira:So why don’t you go up and check on her?
::Setsuna shakes her head::
Setsuna:No it wouldn’t be right….she’ll talk when she’d ready
::Kim’s legs dangle from her hammock and she jumps floating down to the bishies::
SetsunaHow are you feeling?
::Kim smiles ::
Kim:Much better I found out something that made everything okay you know
Heero:He dumped his girlfriend
Kim:No and I hope he doesn’t
::Bishies are confused::
Kim:Let me explain…He had his girlfriend’s name on his arm…each letter flawlessly done he took careful time to make sure each letter was perfect. Then under her name he drew a beautiful rose. I passed my nails across his skin almost drawing blood and making him flinch. I asked him if that was her name. He told me no it was his fiancées. At first I took that like a slap in the face but covered it with a fake that’s so sweet. Jonnell watched me as I asked him to tell me about her. He gave me a beautiful story about meeting her his 8th grade year and how she was in the 6th grade and how much he loved her and the times they’d shared and so on. I smiled when he finished and almost cried…I couldn’t help it. I remember once Michael my angel did the same thing. I saw the parallel and accepted it’s beauty and it’s justice. I told him I hoped his dreams wouldn’t be torn to shreds like mine. With that I left him alone to go remember my own youth…I told Joel about my past….and he told me some of his…we both hugged each other when we finished because our lives were so pathetic. Joel offered a shoulder to cry on and someone to talk to when I needed it most. Perhaps he’s using the situation to his advantage to get on my good side but I don’t mind too much. In short…everything is okay now I guess…::a tear trickels down her cheek:: not all the way but enough you know.
::Setsuna crosses over and hugs Kim tight::
Setsuna:You’ll find him okay? Just wait and he’ll show up okay I promise.
Heero: ::racks gun putting a bullet in the chamber:: If not we’ll hunt him down for you
Akira: Good now that that’s settled Maybe Kenshin can make us something to eat
Kenshin:No problem
::Kenshin gets up letting Sano fall::
Sano: Ken-san! What the f---?

Mood:Sad...depressed
Song of Choice: Comforting words from the Angel of Glass
Topic: Reality Hits hard

I get to school and I see Keith. I muster my courage, straighten my clothes, run my fingers through my hair, and wlak over to talk to him. About halfway there I see he’s holding some girl’s hand.
Right there I seriously considered the Bushido code of honor. I would have rather fallen on the sword and ritualistically disembowel myself them live with the dishonor and shame of falling for a man who is spoken for.
::sigh:: such good luck hmm? Man that’s so unfai. Geeze…I feel so rejected…kinda like a stray cat that no one will take in.
How stupid I am….I actually paid attetnion to him…devoted precious thought to perhaps starting a relationship with him(please excuse that Johen quote stealing) hardly slept because I thought so much about it. I guess people like me aren’t issued happiness. Just a brief prelude to the tiresome descents into levels of hell even a convenience store clerk could never imagine.(another stolen good) Oh well…Joel and Cat(the one we all know and love) made me feel better. Joel gave me hugs and a shoulder, Cat gave me a pep talk while I drowned my sorrow in Pringels but sadly the electricity went off and I couldn’t finish talking to her. So so so sad. Sorry Cat! Well I have to go work now and earn some money to drown my sorrow in shopping.

Mood:Melancholy…I want Peter and Quita
Song of Choice: “Sympathy” by the Goo Goo Dolls
Topic: Rhapsody of Betrayal

I feel confused. I mean I hate to do this stupid teenager I like a boy thing because I know I’m smarter than that but I have to think it through and the best way for me to do it is to write about it. Today at lunch Joni was looking for Patrick this boy she’s been hunting after for like geeze a month and I was kinda chillin and then I saw Keith and my reaction was really weird. I smiled and blushed and giggled and was genuinely happy like the way I got when I saw Peter…but different. I flirted without shame and he and I hugged and laughed and he picked me up and spun me around then I held his face in my hands and looked into his eyes trying to figure out what color they were and he just stared back down at me and later I played with his shaggy hair and he told me how nice it felt and we just sat together enjoying each others company and I could not stop smiling at him and I know I must have been blushing.

Then later Joel was smiling and laughing and acting happier than I’d ever seen him and then in this knowing way he asked me if I liked him. I stopped and thought about the question and examined my feelings and I fessed up I told Joel Yeah in this odd kinda way. Joel smiled and he said you can tell…I like the way you look like that….wish it was me. He looked happy but sad at the same time. He just kinda let it go but didn’t really look at me anymore. ..I think I hurt him and he was trying to hide it.

It felt weird because…well I only got that way with Angel and I kinda feel bad that I got that way with another guy. I mean God knows he’s had his share of women and I don’t know I haven’t had my share of boys you know? I haven’t allowed myself. Then with Keith it’s weird it’s like for a span of 20 minutes in my day I have someone you know not like I’m all alone like I always seem to be. It’s strange.

I guess what I’m saying is that I’m giving myself permission to have a crush. I don’t know why but I am. I have no idea if he has a girlfriend and to tell the truth I don’t care. I’m fine alone I just…I need someone…you know…I think the people reading this like Peter, Liz and Quita especially understand. I mean I kinda feel guilty but…why should I you know? Angel has had like 10 girlfriends in the span of like 2 years me you wanna know how many 0 that’s how many. I think I should be allowed to have a freakin’ crush on a boy right?

Oh God how pathetic…someone for the love of God please give me some affirmation or at least a honest opinion I don’t care if you bad mouth me just tell me why okay? Quita I would like your opinion especially.

Mood:Divided ::wink wink::
Song of Choice:"Spin" and "Breathing" by Lifehouse
Topic: Opinions
(The Ying and Yang Kims are Chibi Anime Style Kims that look mostly like Karuo-dono form Kenshin for later refernce)

::Yang Kim sits on Purple cloud munching on bowl of Chinese rice::

Yang Kim:Kim own't be writin an entry today she's tied up re-doing work

::Ying Kim poof up on Pink cloud holding a tray of eel sushi::

Yang Kim:You filling them in?
Yang Kim:Yeah. Well personally I think Kim shoulda told that lady off
Ying Kim:You would. Why don't you explain what happened?
Yang Kim:Fine you got it.::she wipes off her mouth with the back of her hand:: Kim had to do these 250 words in 3 weeks. Well she got them off the internet because duh she types faster than she write you know. Well she turned them in and her teacher gave her a zero. So now she has to redo them by hand in two days because the teacher had originally told the class they couldn't do that. Nevermind she didn't tell Kim that. Well whatever teh max score she can get is an 80. Now doesn't that seem a little insane?::contines munching on rice with chopsticks::

Ying Kim:She's right I have to give her that....::eats a piece of sushi
Yang Kim:Of course I am. Kim also got a baby-sitting job and will be getting payed!! The Manga world will be her's!! Her plans are to buy the FY #7 the last 5 or so of SM and then start on Ranma 1/2 and IY! If there is any money after that she'll buy the Soul Hunter DVDs and the White Cross DVDs and of course a scroll here and there! Kim might visit this weekend...Cat and Lum should get a letter in 3 days. Armond has been bugging Kim to go see one of his soccer practices..Joel is still perverse...the other boy was kinda bashful toward Kim until she told him not to put to much thought into what happened the otherday. Well anywho now that Kim has introduced us we're perminent here.

Ying Kim:Boy you deliver the news well but yeah Yupe we are the reason for Kims see the best in people--

Yang Kim:And here I'm gonna be honest side! Like Games how in the world did you forget Quita had boobs that's like 1/2 her body!

::Ying Kim looks at Yang Kim sideways::

Yang Kim:Well anywho I'm going to find more food Bye!

::Yang Kim waves bye and poofs out::
::Ying Kim Looks down at her tray::

Ying Kim:YANG YOU ATE MY SUSHI!!!

::Yang Kim Poofs out::

Mood:Flattered
Song of Choice:"Deeper into you"by TRUST COMPANY
Topic:Temptation

Kim sets up a video camera and begins projecting the image on the screen.

This was my day

Fast Forward past test to walking down the hallway to class. Kim is wearing a bright Spencer Green shirt and is walking down the hallway. A blonde boy with shaggy blonde hair, defined chest easily seen through his curve hugging shirt, sculpted arms exposed due to his lack of sleeves, calls her name. Kim stops and says hi picture stops

Okay people ya see this lil hottie? This person will be spared being named and for future reference I’ve known him like 2 weeks.

picture continues he hugs Kim and asks jokingly but with a hint of seriousness if perhaps she’d like to go fool around later freeze frame. A little Kim in a black Kimono with little purple fans pops out from a lil purple cloud on Kim’s Shoulder(this would be Kim’s Yang or her darker side)
Yang Kim: Wow what a babe!! Say yes say yes!!
We see another lil Kim in a cerulean blue Kimono with yellow fans (Ying Kim or her light side)pops up above Yang Kim’s head in a powder pink cloud and hits her with a harisen (a club usually made out of paper used to motivate students you know the anime smack thing) Yang Kim falls of Kim’s shoulder and Ying Kim jumps onto that spot.
Ying Kim: What’s wrong with you? Have you forgotten this guy?
Pulls out image scroll of Angel which is a collage of the various times Kim has seen him.
Ying Kim: You know better! Turn him down but nice!
Ying Kim disappears. Then Yang reappears.
Yang Kim: We’ll tie him up later and make him be your lil cat boy!
Poof gone
Freeze frame continues
Kim:Naw that’s okay I’m not into all that. But I’ll keep that offer in mind

Kim sits in hammock.
Yeah I turned down one of the hottest guys in the joint today. Kinda makes me feel good but you know when I’m like 40 and not married I’ll regret it. Then again I think this guy was just lookin for a lay because I’ve only known him like 2 weeks so I suppose he was desperate to kinda non-beat-around the bush.

FF past a test, another essay, a zero, and a novel to lunch were Josh the porno King explains the male version of the best sex
::Kim sighs:: I won’t bother putting you poor people through what I had to do through
fast forward past pizza party, talking to Armond about his g/f Michelle to bus ride home and Joel
Joel: are you going to be her next year
Kim: Maybe
Joel: Do you dance?
Kim: No not really why?
Ying Kim pops in on a pink cloud and yells Except with PETER! poof gone
Joel: I just thought you might dance with me in the Hispanic festival next year.
Kim arches eyebrow: With you?
Joel clears throat: Yeah with me.
Kim: With you?
Joel: Yeah
Long silence
Joel: I think Sue Marie likes me, but she’s just a friend
Kim: Duh that’s why she’s always all over you and goes psycho on me whenever I hug you hey or whatever (side note whatever being poking of tummies and messing up of hair) Contrary to popular belief Joel some women want to get layed just as much as most guys.
Joel:Are you one of them?
Freeze frame
Yang Kim pops up sitting on her purple cloud.
Yang Kim:: High pitched laugh:: LOL not for you loser! Geeze how pathetic! What the hell is wrong with you asking a girl a question like that she outta shoot you!
Ying Kim sits next to Yang Kim
Ying Kim: How conceded what a jerk.
Picture continues
Kim:No I’m not and you know that
Joel: I was just checking to see if you changed your mind because you know I’m not busy and I’m avaible
Freeze frame
Yang Kim: Geeze what is it with guys today? Is Green just a really attractive color or is it a full moon or is there some kinda bet going on?
Ying Kim:: sigh:: Turn him down nicely I mean if you were throwing yourself at someone you’d like some dignity right? Okay let him down easy.
Picture continues
Kim: No I’m not that kinda girl that isn’t something I want to do now.
Joel:Maybe later then?
Yang Kim: Oh screw it be blunt!
Kim: I have no intentions of ever sleeping with you Joel
Joel: Got ya.
End reel

This was my day…I don’t know why all this sex talk was pressed on me in one day but GOD I am tired. For future reference ying and yang are not good and evil simply opposites that cannot exsist or at least be defined without the other .